Saturday, March 27, 2010

Guess what!?!?!?

So I started physical therapy two weeks ago... It's been rough but also alot of fun. I'm mainly on an underwater treadmill. It's actually pretty tight. Then I do alot of other excercises and they've gotten alot of new equipment test on me. So I'm hooked up to all sorts of different machines. I'm usually there at least two hours on monday, wednesdays and fridays. To be honest I'm not really in a mood to type anything, but I have some great news! They just got this portable EMG machine from Italy, and while they were doing tests my foot moved! On its own! It's not alot, its hardly significant at all but I can resist a little if my therapist puts pressure on my foot! It's pretty sweet! But yeah, I think it's really exciting and hopefully therapy will help even more. It's been nice to get some strength back too! Well that's all! My foot twitches! Woot!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Find the Joy in the Journey...

There is sunshine in my soul today!

My cute little cousins came to visit!!! Claire and Maryn.

Here they are, acting "normal" for the picture... 

I can't tell you how much my family means to me. They are so amazing, I honestly don't know what I would to without them, and that's under normal circumstances. Having this trial and test happening right now, is actually a blessing, because I have my family to fall back on. People always ask me how I'm doing, and they are shocked when I say I'm great. I mean, honestly, why wouldn't I be great. I have my family, I have the gospel, I have so many blessings. Yeah, I'll admit, I'd rather not be going through this right now, but when is anyone excited about the little bumbs that come our way. Life is full of good and bad times, but it's the good and the bad times that make up our life.  It's just as easy to be happy as it is to miserable. I found this great quote! "The only disability in life is a bad a attitude." -Scott Hamilton. I love that, because I guess technically I'm disabled, well at least for now. But just because my body isn't as useful as it use to be, doesn't mean that I am. I know if I heal or if I don't I still have alot to offer to the world. I guess, the point of this post is to all those people out there with bad attitudes. Just stop. All my life, I've always tried to see the good in things. I'm not perfect and I have somedays are really hard, and sometimes life just stinks, but then I remember my family and I think of all the blessings the gospel brings into my life. Then life doesn't seem all that bad. I have a friend who is never happy with what life brings her. I can't imagine living that way. I can't change things for her, she has to change things for herself. The only person that can make you have a better attitute is yourself. If you are going through trial after trial, and bad thing after bad thing, don't let it get you down, you are being given the chance to learn and grow. You are GIVEN the opportunity to become a better person, to become closer to God, to become the person you want to be. If nothing ever was hard, how would you ever grow?  

"And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." Doctrine and Covenants 122:7. "Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed." Doctrine and Covenants 123: 17. "Behold, we count them happy which endure. Ye have heard of the patience of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord; that the Lord is very pitiful, and of tender mercy." James 5:11. "Have I not commanded thee? Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord they God is with thee whithersoever thou goest." Joshua 1:9.

I know and understand that life gets hard, but I'm so happy because of my Savior Jesus Christ. I know that if anyone makes the choice to, they too can be as happy as me. Thank you to all of you who helped me get to this point, and thank to all of you who will help me to continue to move forward and grow and learn. I am so happy and I hope that one day, everyone can be as happy as I am. Plus, the great thing is, I have more life ahead of me, so I can only get happier, there probably is another storm coming my way, but that's okay because I for one plan on taking my sunshine wherever I go.

Friday, March 5, 2010


So on Thursday, (March 4th) we (Mom, Dad, Me) went back down to Salt Lake for some more tests. The first set of tests they put electrodes all over my leg and foot to test the muscle and nerve reactions. Obviously, I didn't pass that test with flying colors. Then the second round of tests, the Doctor stuck needles into my leg and thigh to test some more. This experience was a shocking one indeed. It obviously wasn't the worst thing I've ever felt... a few other incidences come to mind when I think of pain level. But, I would never want that done to anyone. I was so glad to have my parents there. Even though I'm turning 21 soon, I guess I should be more of an adult by now... Oh well... I'm not ashamed to admit how much I need my parents. If my Dad hadn't of been there to hold my hand it would've been alot worse. It was nice to have him right by me. It's also nice to know my Dad is stronger then the Incredible Hulk so I could squeeze his hand as hard as I want and it would never phase him. But in all seriousness, it was incredibly scary and I was crying through all of it.
The test results came back and it was pretty much what we were expecting. It proved that the tibial nerve was improving but still extremely damaged. The tibial nerve is the nerve that controls the back part of your leg and foot. This isn't completely damaged, but since this part of the nerve is better then the front part (I can never remember the name) explains why I can resist someone when they push my foot up and why i can slightly curl my toes. The front part of the nerve is significantly damaged more than the tibial nerve.
Because of all the unknowns and how much damage there is and how many things contribute to the damage they want to wait to do any more surgery's or to have exploration surgery's. There's still a good chance things can heal on there own, but the fact that we have to wait so much longer for any concrete answers, just adds to the timeline of recovery. But I'd rather the job be done right, then do something prematurely causing more damage. I'll have another set of electrial tests in 8 weeks to see if there are any improvements. Joyous.
But, other than being electrocuted, I've been doing just fine. I don't do much, but I'm looking to change that. There's only so many movies, TV shows and craft projects you can do without going crazy. My health has been fine which is a great blessing. Also, the pain has significantly dropped since the original accident. Oh, which reminds me, it was the two month anniversary yesterday. It was a very "shocking" anniversary. It's hard for me to tell, but my mom says every day there are small improvements. I'll take her word for it. :)