So, my body is totally rockin'. They went in, and saw that I had so much scar tissue that it was pressuring and possibly damaging my nerve. So, 4 out of the 6 hours I was in surgery was only for removing scar tissue. (This is the third surgery in the same place in 4 months... just saying) Once they removed the scar tissue, they did the tests on my nerve. They did tests on as much of the nerve as you probably can do, and they found that the nerve can produce a signal all the way down. Obvioulsy, tests aren't perfect, but they feel very strongly that my nerve has a very high possibility of repairing itself and just needs time and a fighting chance. They put a protective gel around the nerve, which will dissolve over time, but this will protect it from the new scar tissue will form, but this will most likely prevent it from hindering the growth and improvement of the nerve.
Honestly, this is the best outcome of this surgery. They didn't have to take the risk to remove any of my own nerve to put in a donor nerve. It's always best to have your own body fix itself over time. It's still a waiting game, but I'm so grateful for this. Patience is something you can always benefit from.
Blessed can't even descibe how I feel. It's amazing the technology that we have. I'm so glad we did this surgery, although I'm in pain, it's nothing compared to what I've been through. I know that if we hadn't of done the surgery, even though my nerve has the ability to reconnect, it didn't stand a fighting chance because of the stress all the scar tissue was putting on. What an amazing thing that these doctors could do for me. Hoepfully, improvements will slowly start coming, but at least we know now that my body has the best possible to repair itself now. What amazing creatures we are, I'm so grateful for the care in which I was created, and for the blessing we have of a wonderful world and the amazing life I live.
The night before the surgery, my parents and I were in Salt Lake, we went and saw the Hubble movie at IMAX. In 3D. Legit, I know. But, I had such an amazing experience, and as tacky as it is I had such an amazing spiritual experience. What a comfort it is to know that God is my creator, and how amazing the entire universe and all creations are, but above all, I am his greatest creation. I know who I am, where I came from, where I'm going and what my purpose it. What greater blessing could I receive. I have such a stong testimony of my Savoir and of the wondrous things that I don't understand, but I know that out of all the Lord created, I am created of him. I love my family so much, and I love my Savior and my Eternal Father. I'm so grateful for the opportunity I've had over my entire life to gain such a strong testimony of my relationship with my Father. I'm so blessed to have all that I have, I don't know what I did to deserve it, but I will try my best to be worthy of all the blessings that I do have.
I know miracles happen. I know that the Savior who performed miracles blessings so long ago, is still doing so today. I feel so blessed to be apart of one. I know that we all will be given what we need, and will not be tried what we are able. We are all going though hard times, but stay close to the Savior and you will be blessed, he is waiting with open arms. If you are scared, he will lighten your fears, if you are weak, he will carry your burden. He will help the lame to walk again. Notice all the good in your life. Know that the Lord can be the guiding hand in your life. Know you are being watched over, know you are loved. Know who you are. You are a child of God. Do not take it lightly, it is true and real.